Saturday, August 8, 2009

growing up

When I was young, I always wanted to remain young, being the youngest of the family I thought that life couldnt be any better! I turned an year older, in the last week of last month and the day totally sucked...I was feeling morose and sullen alternately and suddenly my birthday was no cause for celebration. Feeling guilty about the mistakes I made, sore about the money I'm not making, unsure about the way I feel about myself and the worst part- old and directionless. Without any clue as to what tomorrow holds and just travelling from one port to another in a fast-sinking ship. I pined for the time when birthdays were fun, riotous, a cause celebre and a day which ideally should never end. Sadly the birthday ended and so have all the illusions with it. In the evening when I was having dinner with Pt (my yearly ritual on birthday's, the menu for the last decade has been biryani and paayasam) I tried to put things in perspective and for once look at the positive side of things/life. At 24, I can no longer make the same mistakes which I did with abandon at 18, but by the end of the day that didnt trouble me much because of the simplest reason- I dont have a choice. Life will move on relentlessly and I certainly didnt want to blog at 28, about the things which I didnt do now. Everyday brings with it a solemn ray of sunshine which lights our day the way we want to and there is so much to look forward in life- books, music, arts and most importantly people! All those wonderful people who tried to make that day so special for me, in ways only they could! Felt nice in a way after that, I felt grown up and all important!

Tell me why does Vijay Mallya need a bail out from the government?
To buy a new yatch or for next year's Kingfisher Calender?

7 comments:

Rats said...

we mak(d)e mistakes ? ;)

and old and directionless...when have we felt any different :P ....sweety we crib about it every other day..you shouldve made that day an exception ;)

sayrem said...

"sore about the money I'm not making"

suddenly EVERYONE is talking about this same thing. sample one:

http://rebellious-stone.blogspot.com/2009/08/money-matters-yes-it-does.html

Zeba said...

hhhhhhmmmmmmm. 24 is YOUNG!! You don't have any right to fel like this at this age man. Maybe at 30 you can. Not NOW!!!!!!!


Government is bailing out Malya?

Viji said...

Hey at 24 you must be looking forward and not at the path travelled:-)!!!.

But it happens. At any point when we look back i am sure we will have certain regrets!!

Pesto Sauce said...

Life does move on and does not waiting for anyone, not even Mallya

Zeba said...

I have always been in manipal. as in from the past one year atleast!!

workhard said...

Life is always a roller coaster..

Too young to sulk...

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